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beautiful Ashtyn
My good friend, Lisa Harbertson Photography, took these photos of Ashtyn soon after we were released from the hospital following her bone marrow transplant. We knew Ashtyn’s hair would grow back and we wanted to capture her as she was at that moment. I am so grateful for these photos of my brave girl. If you…
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coping
On February 1st, two days after Ashtyn was hospitalized, I received a message from Brady, whose daughter Millie was on the same floor. “Suzanne, I’m very sorry to hear about Ashtyn. While I’m no expert, we’ve been dealing with this now for over three years, so I can give some advice on how to deal…
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Bootcamp
I am amazed as I look back on the past week. Saturday and Sunday I asked for anyone who could to fast and pray. We wanted Ashtyn’s rash to go away, her throat to feel better, and her white blood cell count to go up. When I woke up Monday morning why was I disappointed…
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Patience will Pay Off
Saturday and Sunday many people prayed and fasted for Ashtyn. We prayed for her specific needs that her rash would go away, her throat would feel better, and her total white blood cell count (WBC) and absolute neutraphil count (ANC) would go up. Sunday night Ashtyn wanted me to sleep in her bed with her.…
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From Ashtyn
I was Ashtyn’s scribe tonight as she shared some of her thoughts: I don’t think Ethan and I, or Morgan and I, or Chandler and I, are going to fight much anymore. We are closer now even though we aren’t together. I feel it in my heart. I can feel them with me. I’m glad…
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Faith
I have always found myself looking ahead and planning for the future. Change has never been a fear of mine. When things don’t end up how they were envisioned, I adapt. Naturally I look at Ashtyn’s health the same way. I don’t know the future, though I can’t help but think about it. It doesn’t matter what…
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Ribbon Tying to Show Support
Today I was woken up by a phone call from a reporter for Fox 13 News Utah. From 11:45 am to 1 pm Canyonview Elementary School had plans to tie lime green ribbons around the school to show their support for Ashtyn. The news channel was covering the story and the reporter wanted to interview…
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Consider the Blessings
Ashtyn looks so much better than a week ago. She isn’t nearly as sick, however she still feels crummy. Of course she does. I have no idea what it feels like to have no white blood cells, low platelets, and have a body that is recovering from chemo. Her throat and mouth continue to hurt. Swallowing is…
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Perspective
Ashtyn and I have different perspectives of time. We have been in the hospital for 27 days and it has gone by very fast for me. There is not a moment of boredom where I can kick up my feet and wonder what I should do with my time. There is always something to do.…
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She Chose This
Ashtyn and I are spending our 25th night in the hospital. She is no longer being kept awake by nausea, vomiting, coughing, mucous, diarrhea, bloody noses, restroom runs every two hours, shortness of breath with fluid in her lungs, or an extremely swollen mouth. She isn’t suffering from a high temperature, high heart rate, or high respiratory rate. For…