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Getting Back to “Normal”

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The doctors came to Ashtyn’s room this morning, as they always do, to discuss the plan of the day.  What are the concerns?  How is her status?  What changes need to be made? Everyone was pleased with how well she is doing and noticed her huge improvement.  No changes were made.  Stay the course.

For eleven days the oncologists have cultured all possible blood, urine, stool, nasal, throat, and anything else they could test to determine why she got so sick.  The infectious disease department was involved to make sure she was being covered by every antibiotic, anti viral, and anti fungal medication possible.  Surgery attendings were involved monitoring her appendix.  ENT was included to rule out fungus in her sinuses.  Integrated medicine was there to provide pressure point and massage therapy.  She had physical and occupational therapy working on strength.  Dermatology took a look at her scalp for a questionable mole and will be looking at the rash she has all over her torso tomorrow.  I wish I could write a list of all the viral, bacterial, or fungal infections they have tested for.  I don’t have the list and most of them are words I’m not familiar with anyway.  Every single test has come back negative for any sign of infection. Remarkable. But not surprising.

February 13th I posted “Nowhere I’d Rather Be.”  It was the night before the doctors started doing blood work to test for infections.  In the post I wrote: The Stake President gave her a blessing.  The blessing started out sounding generic to what she was in need of… Soon though the blessing didn’t seem generic to me anymore.  His voice changed and with power he said,  “I command these infections and illnesses to leave your body.”…Of course she still has cancer.  That wasn’t what he commanded to leave.  I believe she did have an infection of some sort, and whatever infection she had was healed using the power of God.”

That blessing has come to be a tremendous help for Ashtyn.  Her body has had such a severe reaction to the chemo.  Even her healthcare team commented that her body was hit abnormally hard.  What a blessing it has been to be infection free, so her body could conserve energy to handle the effects of chemo without having to fight and deal with a bacterial, viral, or fungal infection. “In a priesthood blessing a servant of the Lord exercises the priesthood, as moved upon by the Holy Ghost, to call upon the powers of heaven for the benefit of the person being blessed.” Dallin H. Oaks

Today was a great day, by my standards.  Ashtyn is on the road to getting back to “normal.”  For over a week all she did was lay in a quiet, dark room and keep everyone busy with all that she was going through.  Today she was awake and alert for a few hours at a time.  Her naps were calm and restful.  By the end of the day her temperatures ranged from 98.7 to 100.5.  Her nausea was gone which meant there was no throwing up.  We played two games of UNO with occupational therapy while we listened to music.  She was able to talk a lot more and I was able to understand what she was saying.  When walking to the restroom and back she no longer was shaky and unsteady on her feet.  Ashtyn had energy to be a little irritated.  She doesn’t like that her mouth and throat hurt.  All she wants to do is be able to swallow her spit and a cup of cold water without excruciating pain.  Ashtyn voiced her opinions today when things weren’t where she thought they should be or when she wanted something.  When told to do things she didn’t want to do, she resisted  more.  Her irritation is a good sign to me. The outward fight is in her.  Today she didn’t do anything abnormal.  She did make me scared one time.  When getting a red blood cell transfusion, her heart rate went down to around 70.  A normal heart rate is generally 60-100 for a child her age.  Her heart rate had been high for days so when it dropped to normal I got nervous.  Her heart rate dropping to 70 just meant that her heart wasn’t having to work as hard as previously.  One thing has remained the same.  Ashtyn wants to go home.  She is on the road to getting there and I am so proud of her.

It’s very inspiring watching Ashtyn overcome hurdles.  I know she will be faced with one after another.  Rest will always follow, whether for a short moment or an extended period of time.  We will then be faced with another hurdle to learn from.  One thing we will always keep in mind, “Truly, things always work out!  Despite how difficult circumstances may look at the moment, those who have faith and move forward with a happy spirit will find that things always work out.” Gordon B. Hinckley

The Beginning…

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Wednesday January 30th started with a prayer. “Heavenly Father, thou knows Ashtyn has missed school and has been sick for a couple of weeks.  She has been pale and has had very little energy.  Last night my mom called to pass on a message from my dad that he really feels Ashtyn needs to see a doctor.  You know how my dad is.  He isn’t much of a talker but when he does, he speaks with wisdom.  You know how I am.  I think she just has a flu that she still needs to recover from.  Please help her to get better or tell me what to do. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.”

And off we went as usual.  I drove Chandler (13 yo) to Butler Middle School at 7:40 am, picked up my adorable nieces Millie (3 yo) and Ruby (1 1/2 yo) from my sister Alisa to babysit for the day.  Went back home, fed kids breakfast, and hopped in the car at 8:30 am to take Ashtyn (12) and Morgan (10) to Canyonview Elementary.  Ethan (6), Millie, Ruby, and I went back home, got ready for the gym and headed to XCEL Fitness.  At 11:30 am I was ready to head out of the gym when I got a phone call from Canyonview Elementary School telling me that Ashtyn wasn’t feeling well and needed to be picked up.  My heart raced in a way it never has when I get a sick call from school.  My sister Jen was at my side and with a worried face I said, “I’ve got to get Ashtyn to a doctor.”  She asked, “Do you think she could have Leukemia?”  “Yes.” I answered.

When I walked in to the sick room at the school Ashtyn was laying on the bed.  After a few days of protesting a doctors visit, with tears in her eyes she said,  “Mom, I think I need to see a doctor.”  “I know sweetie.”

I got a phone call from Chandler letting me know he didn’t feel well and asked if I could pick him up from school.  “Perfect timing, I will be right there.”  By this time it was 12:10 pm.  Ethan’s school started at 12:15 pm so I dropped him off to Kindergarten at Butler Elementary. With urgency in my heart, I dropped Chandler, Millie, and Ruby to my moms and headed for the Insta-care with the knowledge that Ashtyn needed blood work done to find out if she has mono or Leukemia.

We sat in the waiting room for about an hour and once it was Ashtyn’s turn to see a doctor things started happening with no delays.  Ashtyn was truly terrified  when it took three painful needle sticks to get blood work.  The results quickly came back with a very low White Blood Cell count and low hematocrit. I called Jason to let him know we were heading to Primary Children’s Hospital.  It was 2:30 pm. Jason just so happened to be off work driving home and his dad just so happened to be 5 minutes away and headed to my house to give Ashtyn a blessing. ** I have never believed in “just so happened”.  There are constant tender mercies from God all around us everyday showing us his continual and constant hand in our lives.** I drove Ashtyn home, got her in comfy PJ’s, grabbed her favorite blanket, Justin Beiber pillow and a few other things.  Lorin, Jason’s dad, gave Ashtyn a blessing.  I don’t remember a word he said but it doesn’t matter. I know the power of the Priesthood is the power of God and blessed Ashtyn with what she needed at that time.

Once we got to Primary Children’s hospital at 3:30 pm things happened quickly.  The ER took every blood test they needed, but she was calmer with the needle sticks than she was at the insta-care.  Ashtyn: “I trust them more here.”  We first met with the NNP who talked to us about cancer.  We then talked to the Hematologist who also was leaning towards cancer.  Ashtyn was hearing about cancer when we didn’t even know she had it.  In my mind I wasn’t going to assume she had anything until tests came back.  As far as I knew, maybe she had a severe virus and yes maybe it was Leukemia, but I didn’t want to jump to any conclusions.  By 7:30 pm Ashtyn was taken to the 4th floor and given a room in the ICS Immunocompromised floor.  Ashtyn was scared. She wanted to know what was wrong with her.  She didn’t want cancer.  She didn’t want to be in the hospital.  She wanted to be in school. (“What? You never want to be in school. How perspectives change.”) She wanted to be home.  However she felt how I felt, nervous for the unknown but peace in the heart.

Once settled the visitors came and so did her smile, and even her laugh.

We will face this challenge with upbeat spirits.  There will be times for crying, anger, fear, frustration, doubt, and anxiety. There will also be times for peace, happiness, smiles, calmness, and fun.

James E. Faust, “Everybody in this life has their challenges and difficulties. That is part of our mortal test.  The reason for some of these trials cannot be readily understood except on the basis of faith and hope because there is often a larger purpose which we do not always understand. Peace comes through hope.”